NOPE, sorry, not a biblical post. lol. In fact, probably the
farthest thing from it. This is just MY beginning, or rather, the
beginning of my blog. I started this blog as an assignment for one of
my classes, (I'm taking classes to get an Executive Office Professional
associates degree). I've always wanted to make a blog, but, figured,
who the hell would read one if I did? Well, when I was given the
assignment, I decided that I didn't care if anyone read it, I had to
create SOME kind of page, and I had always wanted to do a blog, so, why
not? And, here we are... Thanks, Marissa. :-)
"So,
what's this all about," you say, "Clutter and Fluff? What are you, a
chicken?" No. I'm just fat and messy, I have trouble losing weight and
I hate cleaning house, and I'm trying to live healthier both inside and
out.
This all started at the beginning of the
year. I lost a child in 2006; Kaytlin Rose. She was a beautiful baby,
the love of my life, as all my babies are, and she left me when she was 2
months old. I spent the next 7 years merely existing. I operated on
autopilot; I took care of my son, Nicholas, who was 4 when she died, I
worked, I got married, had another little girl, Zoe. I had a life, but,
I didn't live; I only existed.
January 10th
would have been Kaytlin's 8th birthday. Now, normally on her birthday, I
would spend the day going between my bed and the living room recliner,
and between bouts of crying, screaming at the kids, and feeling sorry
for myself. But, this year, I had an epiphany. I decided that there
was no way in hell I could ever possibly LIVE my life if I continued to
mourn Kaytlin's death. Not only that, but, I wasn't going to be able to
be thankful for the time I got to have with Kayt if I was always angry
for the time I've had to go without her. That's along time to be angry,
and a long time to be on autopilot. My other babies deserved better
than that, my marriage desverved better than that, and I deserved better than that. It was time to change.
It
took a little more convincing. I'm not an up-and-at-'em type of
person. I have to really talk myself into it, ya know. And so, right
after Kaytlin's Angel day, (March 4), I called and made an appointment
with my health care provider, to join her weight management program. I
have been on the program before, under different doctors, but, never
have I been this committed. In the first month, I lost 16 pounds. My
next appointment is May 8. I think I'll have good results then, too.
In the last 6 weeks, I've tossed almost 15 BIG bags of junk. I had a
lot of shit to get rid of!
I'm almost done, but, I wanted to share with you some things I'm using that are helping to make this easier for me:
For
weightloss, I use loseit.com, and their app. If you don't use that
site, it's awesome. It lists almost any food you could think of with
serving sizes, calories, fat, sugars..., as well as store brands and
resturants, and a product code scanner (love that!), and TONS of
excercises, even stuff like mowing, housework, and sex! Funny story - I
logged sex one night, then was tinkering with my losit.com profile,
looked at my profile preview... When you log sex, it appears as
"walking" to the public. So, everytime, I log it now, I tell Kevin (my
hubby) that I gotta log our walk. HA HA!
For
housework, I go to flylady.net. That site has daily emails, and helps
you to establish managable and realistic routines. The Flylady is
awesome, because she was just like me, and lots of people like me, in
that she used to be hopeless with housework, and then she figured out
that perfect is THE dirty word,
perfectionism is a myth, and routines are what it's all about. She also
has products for sale, which I am in no way promoting, but, that I
really want because I've seen awesome reviews on.
I swear these two sites have helped me tremendously, but, if you know of any others, I'd love to hear about them!
I'm
making progress, but I still have a long way to go. I'm glad you made
it to the end of this post! You are still awake, right? I hope you'll
join me next time!
TTFN
Alicia
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